04 12 / 2013
I want to talk about how I wish there were a better word we used than “energy” when we talk about ‘negative energy’ or ‘healing energy.’ Talking about that kind of energy, and using it as a model, is very useful for describing how emotions tend to behave (particularly social emotions), but it makes it sound like we believe in magic when we talk about it.
This is actually a really frequent problem for me. I have an incredibly hard time communicating my internal experiences effectively.
03 12 / 2013
"The internet as it has matured is closer to the technological equivalent of a place. An uncharted, almost feral territory where you can genuinely get lost. At times I’ve entered the web just to get lost. In that lovely surrender, the web swallows my certitude and delivers the unknown. Despite the purposeful design of its human creators, the web is a wilderness. Its boundaries are unknown, unknowable, its mysteries uncountable. The bramble of intertwined ideas, links, documents, and images creates and otherness as thick as a jungle.The web smells like life. It knows so much. It has insinuated its tendrils of connection into everything, everywhere. The net is now vastly wider than I am, wider than I can imagine; in this way, while I am in it, it makes me bigger, too."
03 12 / 2013
"Among other things, you’ll find that you’re not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You’re by no means alone on that score, you’ll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You’ll learn from them—if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It’s a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn’t education. It’s history. It’s poetry."
02 12 / 2013
"In the end
I want my heart
to be covered
in stretch marks."